Last week, I made the decision to give my job two-weeks notice, and I was really in turmoil over my decision to leave. I questioned my own motives as to whether I was leaving for the right reasons, or if I was simply being a spoiled brat because, I felt individuals were rude and inconsiderate which left me feeling isolated.

Well as luck would have it, I ended up in the emergency room over the weekend with severe muscle spasms in my neck, back and shoulder areas. The ER doctor ran a bunch of tests and found inflammation. He prescribed Valium, Vicodin, and Ibuprofen, as well as, a day of rest and relaxation.

Upon waking up from a stupor late Sunday evening, I started to reflect on how silly I was being for stressing out over a decision that was already signed, sealed and delivered! I couldn’t change it now even if I wanted to. Given the current economic environment, I realized how lucky I was for being able to find another contract position… I am truly humbled by the blessing God has afforded me.

I also realized that it doesn’t matter how others perceive me. I know that there will always be people, who won’t accept me for who I am…and that’s okay! My only concern is how God almighty views my relationship with him.

Confessions:

I became extremely agitated and allowed fear to suffocate my spirit.

Affirmations:

I am a confident, energetic and self-assured young woman.

Prayer:

Dear God,

Please forgive me for wavering in my faith. I do believe and trust you. I ask that you continue to walk with me in this long and arduous journey called life.

In Jesus’ name. Amen.

Sunny Disposition

Today, I acquired a new contract position within the IT department of a major financial institution. Am I happy? Of course! However, there is a little bit of fear regarding the unknown. For example:

• Am I leaving one annoying situation and jumping head first into another
• Will my new boss dump a ton of unattainable goals in my lap and expect all to be completed within a 3 to 6 month time span
• What about my old boss? Will he become angry and throw me out of the front door because, I promised to fulfill my 6-month contract and now he has to scramble to find someone to work out the remainder of my contract?

Why do I even care at all? I know that God’s got my back in any and all situations. I have to realize that it is not a crime to hate where you work and have the courage to do something about it!  Even if it means damaging an awesome business relationship, I still have to do what’s best for my family. I hate being stressed out every single day on my way to and from work.

My spirit simply doesn’t like my current contract position at this fast growing convenience store chain. I feel out of place, and I just can’t explain how evil the atmosphere feels to me. It’s such a strong feeling, and I’m unable to cope with it any longer. My creator won’t let me! It’s starting to affect me mentally, physically and spiritually. I find that I actually don’t want Saturdays to end!!! I loathe getting up on Sunday, and performing all those tasks that signal the start of the work week.

It’s time for a change, and I embrace whatever is to come.

Confession:

I let fear in, and it cripples my mind, body and spirit on a daily basis.

Affirmation:

I do not live in fear.

I do not fear the unknown.

Prayer:

Dear God

Help me to continue to trust in you for my strength, direction and guidance. Assist me in dismantling the cloak of fear that envelops my life.

In Jesus’ Name…Amen

Sunny Disposition

I’m so upset with myself lately. I’m constantly asking God for guidance in an area that I struggling with. I find that I am always judging other people. Really?? Yeah, like I am perfect!

The world is overrun with sin these days, and it seems like everyone is turning a blind eye and embracing it. There are serious moral issues that many stories in the Bible warn against. For an individual such as myself who grew up learning the word in Bible school, until my father decided to become an atheist, it’s an extremely confusing time in my growth as a Christian.

On one hand I don’t want to seem critical of others chosen path in life, but on the other I want to stand up and shout “These decisions ARE immoral! Read your Bible people! Turn off your TV’s, disconnect your phones and reconnect with God, please!”

During one of my daily Bible study session, God led me to read Matthew 25 in its entirety. All I will say is that if demons existed in Jesus’ time, then they are definitely running rampant in this world today. I strongly recommend that everyone meditates on this chapter.

Confession:

I became angry today when I saw a TV show trailer about a transgendered female.

Affirmation:

I am a loving Christian, who does not judge anyone.

Prayer:

Lord help me to continue to read meditate on your word. Assist me in becoming more tolerant and accepting of others, who don’t believe in the same religious principles as I do. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Sunny Disposition