Today was just like any other day.  Except, I decided to go to the nail salon after work. Now don’t get me wrong, I am realistic. I don’t expect to get serviced, as soon as, I enter an establishment.  However, I asked the worker “How long is the wait?”  She replied, “Fifteen to twenty minutes.” I’m like cool! I’ll wait.

Unfortunately, fifteen minutes turned into thirty. Thirty turned into forty-five minutes!! All I want is a simple polish change. What is going on? Should I walk out? No! I want to wear my brown strappy sandals that go so well with my tan capris and coral shirt to work tomorrow. So, I have to wait, ugh! It’s already late, and I feel my blood starting to boil.  I’m tired and annoyed.

Finally, I’m called to the back of the salon. Painting my toe nails takes all of fifteen minutes (sigh).

Now, I’m sitting under the dryer waiting patiently for the timer to go off…  Suddenly another customer, who had just finished getting her nails painted, comes up to the front where I am sitting to pay for her services. This woman’s credit card is declined (twice), so she begins fumbling through her purse looking feverishly for a lost $100.00 bill. I can literally see little beads of sweat starting to stream down the side of her face, when alas, she finds the money.

Upon yanking the green back out of her purse, she drops it. While proceeding to bend over, she lets out a whopper???!!! Really?? Right in my space, and you are not going to say “excuse or pardon me?” Wow, you’re just going to let that roll, huh??

I can now feel the anger swelling up in me again, and I’m about to tell her how rude she is! Just as I am about to speak my mind, I pause. I can hear a voice speaking to me saying “she’s completely embarrassed, and any snide comments would devastate her. “

It was then that I realized, “I’m not really mad at her…I’m just tired.”

Confessions:

I became extremely offended and angry on more than one occasion today.

Affirmations:

I do not offend easily.

I am extremely patient.

 Prayers:

Lord, guide my words daily and continue to help me tame my tongue. Give me the strength to resist being so angry. Help me to be more. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

Sunny Disposition

Life’s challenges often get me down. I find that I can get so consumed by everything. I have to realize that not every problem is a life altering event. Some things in life just happen! It’s how God made it.

When Jesus walked the earth, he encountered rejection, homelessness, poverty, despair, etc. What makes me think that I am special?  So If I call myself a Christian, who is on a mission to change the world, then guess what??? I need to first change myself. I need to start acting like a disciple of Christ. But what does that truly mean?

I’ve heard many sermons like “Follow God… He is the answer.” I believe this doctrine, don’t I? Why aren’t I living in the fruits of the spirit (Love, Faith, Obedience, Charity, etc.) I have faults just like everyone else, but why am I so judgmental, critical, anxious, bitter, resentful, angry and/or closed off? I confess the following sins today:

• Forget love, I just don’t like everyone. (There, I said it.) People, who get under my skin, include:

The guy who picks over rolls and doughnuts at the grocery store with his bare nasty hands.

Any woman who thinks she can think, text, put on make-up, drink coffee and drive simultaneously.

The robber who breaks into the home of an elderly person and kills him/her for pennies, especially when he was given a handyman job by the victim(s).

Young kids who don’t have manners!

Adults without manners!

Anyone who uses his/her position of power to manipulate others in to performing acts (of any kind) to satisfy their needs.

• I anger way to easily these days!
• I have trouble listening and obeying my inner voice.
• I need to get the gossiping under control.
• My faith wavers too much. I always have to talk myself off of a ledge.
• Judgmental, judgmental, judgmental!!!!

This is an abbreviated list, but you get the point! As time goes on, I’m sure this list will grow exponentially.

Prayer:

Dear God,

Please help me to guard my tongue and become slow to anger.  I ask for your continued love and guidance in everything that I do today.  In Jesus’ Name, Amen

Sunny Disposition

Hello and welcome to my blog! I am so happy that you have taken the time to fellowship with me.  I am on a spiritual journey of enlightenment, truth, love and understanding.  I want to have all the fruits of the spirit sprinkled within my soul.

I think being a Christian is more than just showing up to church on Sunday or attending a service on a major holiday.  Since I’m not perfect and fall short every day, I believe that it is important to confess my sins and affirm the areas of my life that I want to come into fruition.

Listen, I don’t have all of the answers, but I do know that God has been and continues to be the guiding light in my life! During these last few years, I have experienced situations that have rocked me to my core. I’ve dealt with illness, death, disease, etc., and the uncertainty of it all took its toll on my spiritual being. I started blaming God for everything!  As a result depression, loneliness, anxiety set in, and I began to contemplate suicide. BUT, there has always been a little voice that has comforted me, rendering my decision to end it all inconceivable.

So I’ve decided to completely give my life over to the God, and walk the path of righteousness with him.  I know there will be trials and tribulations along the way, because I’ve been here before.  However this time it’s different, because I’m different. I feel renewed and steadfast within my spiritual walk. I’m prepared to fall, but I am determined to rise again and again until others can truly see a change in me. I’m hoping that sharing my struggles and accomplishments inspire others to join in and follow God as well.

If you don’t want to commit now, that’s okay.  I welcome any feedback that will help me to navigate life’s daily obstacles in a Christian manner.  I know that if I want to help heal the world, then I have to first start with myself.

So…Let’s heal the world together one step at a time.

Yours in Christ,

Sunny Disposition